Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Happy 22nd Jezzie Girl :D


December 19-23, 2009
Location: Boracay Island

I decided to make it different this year. I celebrated my birthday at the island I can go back to over and over again. My happy place. Ofcourse, in the presence of my ever beloved cousins and close friends who booked their flights as soon as I told them that I'll be celebrating it there. Talk about sweetness! I could never ask for anything more. My happy place, my cousins and friends, my juice family together with the cold breeze brought about by the holiday season. Nothing compares.

I just love everything about this trip and about my life. I may not get everything that I want but I have everything that I need, and that's way too awesome.

A million thanks goes to all of you who made me feel special in your own little ways. Kiss!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

December = Spend Month


December is spend month for me. 1, it's holiday season. 2, shopping spree because it's sale and
3, it's my birthday month!!! :p

I don't want to think of my payables this month. But they just can't be overlooked. :( Hayyy Stressssss. I've been holding my pen and notebook the whole day! Budget Budget!

Birthday Package


My Birthday Package

To be paid by yours truly ofcourse. Credit Card was overused.
I'm afraid of my bills come January. :l

Happy Birthday Jezzie Girl!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Will Surely be Missed :)

For those girls who fell back inlove with a guy, only to get hurt all over again.

Here’s to the ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.


Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you.

We deserve something better, and this is our tribute.

Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for awhile.


We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming.

This is for us.Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again.What we wanted is desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.


Here’s for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn’t see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.



We just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder “what if”.

This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.

Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again.


This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an
“I told you so.”

The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, and their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come to see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.


Here’s for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here’s for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.

Here’s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.

This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay string, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than trying to put the pieces back together and get hurt.

Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.When “your song” comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was.

Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it felt to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him, and realized that once again, he hadn’t called when he said he was going to.

One day, you’ll find a guy who’s worth all the tears, but he won’t make you cry. You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.

It’s gonna hurt like crap, and it’s going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

When you run out of whores, don't expect me to be there.


Someone you can get along very well or Someone who would listen to your stories with all ears is different from someone you can call for a booty call.

If you're next door neighbor/fubu agrees to have sex with you when you're feeling down and low. Agrees to cuddling with you when you need self esteem and doesn't mind receiving a call from you at 3am asking her to hang out and God knows what happens after that -- I'm sorry, I'm not that kind of woman.

I'll be a good friend, a listener, maybe even give you a good advice on the mess that you're creating in your life; but once you cross that thin thin line and attempt to get me to bed... you can find your way out of my life.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

The greatest relationship.

I got this from my Tumblr. And I know it's worth sharing.

The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and challenged your ever view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. the ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.

The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that god exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. the ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.



The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.


The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.



The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. the ones that remind your love lost is better than never having loved at all.